recalling the past again

A story about me(part 1): in the early days of 2020, I made my first internet friend... I was so happy, she became my crush. I knew she had a boyfriend and me having no idea of relationship, I was fine being just friends... our friendship ended with me having a broken heart, How! Well, her boyfriend texted me with cuss words and warned me not to text her again, and he was using her id. It felt so bad, like my first time getting treated like that, she was a good friend of mine, we used to talk about almost everything, I was emotionally attached to her, build some sort of dependency.

A few months down the line, I made some friends again, this time it was a friend circle you could say; a guy xy who was admin of a meme page, a girl Dot he liked(me too/platonic), close friend Jack of the girl(boy) and friends Lu of that girl(one of which became my crush). There were some others, but not relevant to my story.[italics are their name, so skip the italics while reading]
Dot was amazing person, so much charisma. We were very good friends, I was kinda flirty with her, not in romantic way. We used to make and share a lot of memes, me, xy and Dot. We were like a trio, talking about us and having fun. My communication with Dot mostly had us 3 included, but Dot always had a separate friend group, including Lu, Jack and some others, they also knew each other for a longer period than me. At this point I started to talk with Lu as well. Everything was going well, until one day... Dot said she’s going, I asked where, being confused what she meant. She said she’s gonna delete her account and move on, she has a bf and she’s getting married. I was so shocked, she never revealed this until now, and it’s so sudden, it came as a great shock to me. I was only processing what just happened for the next few days, then one day Lu dropped some truth bomb. She said I was the reason why Dot is leaving, explaining that Jack has scold Dot for being a dirty girl as I have tagged her in some vulgar memes and she was fine with it. Dot was somewhat conservative, and this Jack guy was a possessive/conservative, extremist religious person.
Dot left, I was depressed for few weeks, my friend circle is destroyed... I could not open up with anyone. Xy said he used to love Dot. My relationship with Lu also soured.

22.01.2020

A lot of time has passed but I'm still thinking if somehow all the stories I've came in contact would come true. Cause in a certain way I still trust in fantasy stories. Though I'm a science student I wonder if the stories were true then I would be much happier than these. And in a certain way I'm a great reader of psychological stories.

By my experience in stories I can say that a story would be much interesting if you manage to know the background, plot, characters, of the story and the informations about the writer. Then you'll be able to know how & what he was thinking while creating such an great thing. It becomes more interesting when you know all the characters very well and the plot also. For me, I always liked cartoons more than human's shows. As a result I found myself discrete from others. it's my 18th year running in earth but I never managed to find a friend like Hide. I hope in earlier life I will find one.

08:02:2020

not so long ago I saw an Anime so beautiful & unique like an old ornament made with perfection. Made in Abyss is it's name such mysterious & wonderful. A boy with metal arms appears out of nowhere and saves the girl such beautiful & full of inspiration, creates disasters, finally managed to find her mother. In a giant pit, full of mysteries are waiting for them to find the unknow to be known. A journey toward the unknown. With a pack of hunters the solve the mysteries bit by bit, In a place covered by the foggy mysteries.

04:09:2018

I just saved a girl in the mechanical zone, where the construction was being held. I rescued the girl and sent her to a safer place.

02:05:2019

I first watched an episode of "Your lie in April". Now, today I've watched the 18th episode out of 22. I never felt more heartly than "your lie in April". I think it's the best anime ever. It touched my heart. Now it's gonna be very hard for me to finish this.
I wept one day, maybe more times.
I'm a little sad cause only 4 episodes are left. But I know it's gonna stay in my head for a long time.
But I don't remember very clearly.
Wish I had this when I was a kid.

25:12:2018

I've downlded 'Your Name''. It was a great movie. I like it very much.

09:11:2018

After two days of wait I finally downloaded one of my greatest movie "A Silent Voice". The movie was so nice and I enjoyed it very much. It's very good movie. You also should watch this movie.

21:09:2018

I went to D(a place) for the first time in my life....!
The journey was too incredible. I enjoy it so much. The roads are good and risky that's why I like it most. There was a gentle weather with beautiful and little flower plants and big and tall trees. The air was fresh and cool. The people of there are very smart. The vehicles are also so amazing. The roads are zig zag and up and down. I went there with my dad and my other grandpa. I really enjoy the trip very much.

20:11:2018

I'm so worried about my reg verification. I hope everything is OK.
Today I'm thinking about my childhood days. The days were so beautiful. I always wonder to have those days again.

20:07:2018

When I put my first step on the slope, at the same time she put her step on the upper side of the slope. I gave her my copy.